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There’s a girl who tries to hold her head high and can’t.

There’s a girl who has a heart of gold but its encased in a clear cold shell.

There’s a girl who has love and wants to love but her past experiences scream “don’t do it!!”. So she smiles and nods when she hears “how are you beautiful?” As she walks the streets of Brooklyn.

Her smile starts to fade as the days go by and she wonders “where’s my Prince Charming?” But then she realizes Prince Charming plays his part in a fairy tale and this is reality; men like that don’t exist.

I will never understand what it is about me that attracts guys who can’t be serious with me.

It’s like they know how I feel and they just take off. But this shit here has me confused. He started showing signs before I did. Caught my ass by surprise because I said I loved this man.

Sat here worried day and night to find out he’s “macking” on his phone after a video shoot. Funny how your feelings change from love to hate that quick. When the world is against u I could have been there to hold them back.

When everybody had their hands out and in your pocket I didnt want a dime. Fine lines of freshly shed tears streamed down my face because I was confused. Didn’t know if the boys got u or something happened to your phone (like it always does) but I didn’t stop trying.

Now I can’t stop crying because I put so much into u. Pulled u into my heart and even tho I said I’d never, I did. Poor little love sick me. My chest left a bloody mess from the space my heart used to sit. The one thing u said u would never do was hurt me. But u ignored me, when all I did was give u my love and attention.

Not one man came as close to me as u did and u knocked down barriers other niggas can’t. I told u words I never thought I’d be able to speak again to a man and now those words sting. To think that I fell for it hook, line and sinker.

Poor little love sick me 💔